Let's pop my cherry

My first blog entry! How exciting.  First things first I'll explain why I felt the need to blog.  Over the past year and a half my husband (J bird) and I have been trying to get pregnant.  We got pregnant on our wedding night (woohoo!!) after 4-5 months of half-assed trying.  We felt so incredible lucky and blessed.  We had been sorta trying a few month before the wedding at the time when we knew I would not be showing for the wedding day.  When we saw the two lines on the pregnancy test we were both shocked...it was so easy! I spent the next month in a haze...doctors appointments, FitPregnancy magazines and tons of online research.  My brother and his girlfriend were 4 months pregnant so we flew home to share the incredible news with my family and to set up a registry at Babies R Us.  Yes a little early, but we were so caught up in the moment that we could not resist.

Fast forward to 8 weeks.  My first transvaginal ultrasound.  That morning I cooked eggs and had cracked an egg with 2 yolks.  Oh my gosh...does this mean we will hear two heartbeats at the ultrasound?  I hope so!  J Bird and I held hands as the nurse slathered my belly up with jelly.  The room was silent.  The nurse said she would have to get the doctor in the room to speak with us.  Immediately my eyes welled up with tears. The doctor delivered the news that there was no heart beat and the baby was not looking to be 8 weeks.  Heartbreak.  We waited another week to see if possibly the baby had grown at all and it was a fluke.  But it wasn't. We schedule the D & C immediately.

I can't begin to describe all of the emotions that I went through after hearing this news.  At first we were just shocked to get pregnant so fast and now we could not believe that we were not going to be having a baby.  We decided that we were just going to live like the newlyweds we were.  Spur of the moment trips, sleeping in as late as we want, doing whatever our hearts desire.  But that feeling was always there...we want to have a baby.

After a year of trying and no results I went back to the doctor and he prescribed Clomid almost as fast as I told him we had been trying for a year.  No bloodwork, no other questions.  After my first cycle of Clomid I began to experience very painful periods.  Debilitating.  After 3 very painful cycles I spoke with my doctor.  I had began experiencing pain with intercourse soon after the miscarriage and now had very painful periods.  He suspected it was Endometriosis and we scheduled a Laparoscopy and Hysteroscopy.  Basically a surgery to go in, have a look at my lady parts, find endometriosis, and treat the endo by (yuck) burning it off.

In my next post I will talk about the results of the Laparoscopy and what has happened since!