I haven’t abandoned my blog, I swear. J and I decided that we weren’t going to say anything about the outcome of the IVF until mid-July- whether it was good or bad. If things were bad we wanted that time to deal with our feelings together and if it was good we wanted to make sure we got to the first ultrasound and heard a heartbeat.
At the end of June I got my two Hcg blood beta tests. 13DPO- 177 and 15 DPO- 385. So, at this point we know that I am pregnant and it is most likely not a chemical pregnancy. I should have been ecstatic-over the moon happy at this point but I wasn’t. All I could say was that I was about 5% excited. The other 95% was scared shitless that this pregnancy was not going to work out. It was such a weird feeling. We worked so hard to get to this point- only to feel fearful of the past repeating.
My OHSS symptoms really started to decrease about a week after getting the positive blood tests. My stomach went back to a near normal size and I felt like I could breathe again! Around 6 weeks pregnant my left side really began bothering me and being the crazy infertile lady I couldn’t help but believe that I was having an ectopic pregnancy (when the pregnancy grows outside of the uterus). I made an appointment to have an ultrasound done a week earlier to check out whatever was going on inside.
J and I sat nervously inside the same ultrasound room with the same ultrasound tech that gave us the bad news two years ago. She did the transvaginal ultrasound for about 7-10 minutes before she even said anything to us. This woman has the best poker face I have ever seen! We should have taken her to Vegas with us maybe we actually would have won a few bucks.
She turns the screen towards us and wipes her forehead as if this is about to be an exhausting conversation. In my head I’m just thinking, ok here’s the bad news get ready. Instead, she starts describing what she sees- the gestational sac, the pole, the itty bitty baby and it’s humongous beating heart. Ah what a relief. She measured the baby and it was right on target. We even got to hear the heartbeat.
After that she says “And over here…” I started to tear up and asked “There’s two??” and she motioned with her fingers- two. J yells, “Oh SHIT!” hahaha. We just could not believe it. Obviously we knew there would be a possibility of having twins because we put two embryos back in, but to actually see those two babies on the ultrasound screen was unreal. We were able to see Baby B’s heartbeat but it was too far back to hear this one. Baby B also measured right on target. We were just hoping to have our fears relieved that everything was going ok with the pregnancy, but to be able to see TWO heartbeats at 5 weeks 6 days (5w6d) just blew our minds.
We went back for the original ultrasound we had scheduled at 6w6d and were able to see that the babies had grown as they were supposed to and this time we heard both heartbeats! What a blessing.
At this time I can say that we are both 100% excited. It doesn’t mean that I don’t have any fears, because I still worry a lot, but we are trying to enjoy this time because it has been such a journey to get here. J and I just want to say thanks again to everyone who has supported us throughout this time and for all of the prayers we received. We are soooo excited to begin planning for our two little blessings.
