The girls are 12 days old and are doing so well! Again, if anyone wants more info about the girls or to see pictures I will be happy to send you an invitation to our Care Pages. Just send me an email with your email.
My emotional state has been all over the place. Post-pregnancy hormones topped with the stress of having two children in the NICU have caused me to become weepy a few times a day since leaving the hospital. For example I've been in 6 stores since having the girls and I cried in 3 of them. What, you never had a breakdown in the produce aisle of Publix?? Well, welcome to my world. It seems that if I even think about the girls and that I am not able to be with them 24-7 I want to cry. It is hard to spend time away from them and not feel guilty about it. I know they are well taken care of and even when I am with them, I am only allowed a certain amount of physical contact with them but I just feel so bad that we haven't had the chance to be a family together in our home yet.
It has almost been 2 weeks since they have been in the NICU and they will probably be there another 3 weeks. J and I have settled into a routine of visiting them at certain times of the day. The NICU is closed from 6-8pm which just happens to be the best time for us to see the girls when J gets of work. So, usually we cannot go until 8 and when we are there time just goes so fast. After we change, feed and hold them it is 9 and time to get home. It makes for a later night than we would have otherwise. Obviously, we will be getting up with them in the middle of the night when they are home, but that is totally different.
My recovery from the C-section has gone pretty well. I took the pain meds for about a week and when I stopped I realized that the pain had probably gone away before that point, but I was just so sore from returning to normal activities that I couldn't tell the difference. I started driving this Monday! Wow, it was weird after not being able to be independent for 2 months. Although I would give anything for the girls to be home, this time has allowed me to rest when I need to and recover from being on bed rest for 2 months and work up my strength to do every day, normal tasks. I'm 5 lbs higher than my pre-pregnancy weight and I cannot complain about how my body has returned to almost normal. I still have the linea nigra and my stomach is doughy but for the most part I don't look like I just had twins. My body apparently rejects every aspect of getting pregnant and staying pregnant! The pumping and night sweats have helped get back to normal. PS why didn't anyone warn me about crazy night sweats after giving birth?? OMG I wake up and my sheets are soaked along with everything I am wearing. It's an awful cycle because you are hot and sweating first, then freezing because the sheets are wet and you feel disgusting. Between pumping and sweating I am not getting great sleep, but I guess I should just get used to that!
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